Sunday, 17 April 2016

Who I am

Hi lovelies!

This is probably one of the most personal blog posts I've ever written, yet it means so much to me. It's self love and confidence all in 1.

Looking back a few years ago, I was such a different person to the person I am today. I want to share with you the person I once was to the person I am today.

A few years back I hit rock bottom, I was being bullied and I was at a very low point in my life. I naturally have a very bubbly/ loud personality and people interpreted that as "annoying", ultimately that's what I got bullied for. I began to really hate myself and I wanted to change myself because I no longer liked who I was. My self esteem and confidence rapidly deteriorated. It got to the point where I began to lock myself in the toilets and cry because I didn't want to be myself anymore. At the time I thought if I changed myself then people would be nicer to me and I would feel happier. 

I also had really bad teeth, another thing I hated about myself/self conscious about. People would call me names like "rat" and I hated showing my teeth whenever I smiled.

I've been through a hell of a journey but that's my past,it's who I once was and it's shaped me into the person I am today.

After years of braces/orthodontic work my teeth are in a far better state and look fine (if you met me for the 1st time you couldn't tell that I have previously worn braces).I now love my smile and I feel confident and great when I show my teeth.

I also slowly learnt to love myself again for who I was and I began to build up my self esteem. I learned to accept I am who I am and if people want to hate me for it then that's their choice, they'll never know the real me. To this day I'm a much happier person and I feel far more comfortable in my own skin.

Happy me, all smiley!

My experience taught me to stay positive and to always have a positive outlook on life, no matter what. I'd say 95% of the time I'm a very positive person and I try to have a positive mindset. I'm now a far stronger person than I used to be, I went through some extremely tough and upsetting times, but they just made me stronger. I try my hardest not to let negativity get to me.

To anyone who read's this post: not matter how badly people have treated you, no matter how much you dislike yourself and no matter what you've been through, ALWAYS love yourself for who you are and love yourself unconditionally. Remember there will always be people who love for who you are and will stand by you through thick and thin. Remember that what people say about you doesn't define who you are, it just makes you stronger and you prove people wrong.


stephsalx said...

Love this! It's so lovely to read about how much more confident and positive you are now as you should be! You have a beautiful, cheery smile that I'm sure puts a smile on the faces around you as well. X

Steph/Love Steph x

elizabeth said...

Aw such a great post! You have the most beautiful hair colour - and smile! I just love your blog too, it's the sweetest :D xx

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Hattie said...

Such a lovely read! So happy to see that you have gained confidence <3